SHITTY FUCKIN' SHIT POLPOT IDK
I feel ridiculously fucking shitty fuck fuck fuck I hate that I'm such a lazy mothereffin' couch potato that can't be bothered to get off her ass and frickin' do something about her grades.
UGHHHHHHHH. Basically, I just had one of my epiphanies again and I just hate my life so much, I'm literally going to break down. There's this stupid constricting feeling in my chest, like anxiety or some shit and I just want it to go the fuck away because it's no help at all and I hate feeling anxious for no reason.
I am shitting myself over my SAT scores. The thing is, I've already taken them twice and the first two times, all I did was laze around and not do anything productive to actually help me with my scores. I got the same frickin' scores over and over again. Like, what the flying fuck. On my PSAT and both my SAT scores. Not to mention my atrocious SAT subject test scores, wherein I just bombed my biology stuff because I refused to study BECAUSE I WAS SUCH A LAZY FUCKIN' FUCKHEAD. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I've been relying so much on my inept ability in playing the school system, which is really easy btw, being the lazy ass I am and still ranking 5th in my grade, it's not worth it anymore when I have nothing to show for it other than my test grades, rank, and GPA. I want my own SAT scores to reflect that and god fuckin' forbid I get the same score again because I am just going to live a bum-filled life if need be. JFC.
This was all triggered by my need to get into Virginia Tech's Honors Program. I hope I can get into VCU's too. And see how I fare with that.
Now here's a pretty awesome song that gives me an eargasm whenever I listen to the first few seconds. The rest of the song is alright, not really my type of aggressive, militaristic, standard-issue punk rock motif. But I reiterate, the first few seconds are orgasmic:
Now, I shall spend an angst filled night and promptly cry myself to sleep. Bye.
UGHHHHHHHH. Basically, I just had one of my epiphanies again and I just hate my life so much, I'm literally going to break down. There's this stupid constricting feeling in my chest, like anxiety or some shit and I just want it to go the fuck away because it's no help at all and I hate feeling anxious for no reason.
I am shitting myself over my SAT scores. The thing is, I've already taken them twice and the first two times, all I did was laze around and not do anything productive to actually help me with my scores. I got the same frickin' scores over and over again. Like, what the flying fuck. On my PSAT and both my SAT scores. Not to mention my atrocious SAT subject test scores, wherein I just bombed my biology stuff because I refused to study BECAUSE I WAS SUCH A LAZY FUCKIN' FUCKHEAD. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I've been relying so much on my inept ability in playing the school system, which is really easy btw, being the lazy ass I am and still ranking 5th in my grade, it's not worth it anymore when I have nothing to show for it other than my test grades, rank, and GPA. I want my own SAT scores to reflect that and god fuckin' forbid I get the same score again because I am just going to live a bum-filled life if need be. JFC.
This was all triggered by my need to get into Virginia Tech's Honors Program. I hope I can get into VCU's too. And see how I fare with that.
Now here's a pretty awesome song that gives me an eargasm whenever I listen to the first few seconds. The rest of the song is alright, not really my type of aggressive, militaristic, standard-issue punk rock motif. But I reiterate, the first few seconds are orgasmic:
Now, I shall spend an angst filled night and promptly cry myself to sleep. Bye.
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