I FEEL FUCK-AWFUL ABOUT MY LIFE

A LIST OF THE SHITTY THINGS GOING ON RIGHT NOW:

 1.) College:
fucking flying fuck. just fuck. i have no confidence in applying to college. i have nothing to show for other than the fact that i worked the system and rank 5th. i wasted money taking those ap exams because i didn't take them seriously. my sats suck. i missed my acts. i can't get my shit together.

 2.) Friends:
just fuck them. i feel like they're awfully immature and can't seem to wrap their heads around the fact that life's not a fucking movie. i wished that if they had something to say to me that they'll just go ahead and say it.

 3.) Piano:
i'm not progressing. i stopped progressing since year two and it's been emotionally dampening to be playing the same fucking songs over and over again.

 4.) Life:
i just hate everyone. i hate how everyone seems to enjoy high school. how put together they are. they don't seem to have anything that's stressing them out and i am just done with everything. i honestly can't do this anymore.

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